Photography, photography, photography……………

14 Apr

*sheepish smile*….so you MAY have been wondering what happened to me-“Where on the earth have I disappeared to!?”….aaaah, LIFE- don’t you wish Life would just take a hike and leave us alone every once in a while. LOL SMH Dream on, buggers!

Sooo… last time I told you the most exciting news! Franklyn ‘Chappie’ St. Juste offered to teach me a thing or two about photography….and, I dunno if you remember, we also had this big heart to heart and I told you how I ‘feel’ things….:-/ Well, things haven’t been ‘feeling’ too great lately…I’ve had a few sessions with the master and I showed him some of my pictures and -wait for it- ……HE HATES THEM – ya, literally, he doesn’t get them – there were THREE pictures which he thought “oh, this could go somewhere”. Everything else was “why black and white-I dunno why you using black and white” or “this could only work if you’re trying to make a picture that people have to guess what the object is” orΒ off hand, flippant comments like “…..(aaarrgh! I can’t remember the comment right now but it can be summed up into the simple fact that he didn’t like this picture ——->

I LOVE this picture!!! *Big sigh*

….And so I have been feeling like I really don’t belong here and as if I’m waaay out of my depth aspiring to be a photographer/film maker. And now, how I see/feel the world(as it relates to photography) has changed. I still see great shots every where but the feeling’s missing, rather than the rush of excitement and the big ball of love that rushes from my gut to my fingertips, when I see a shot I now think, “hm, it probably won’t work anyways. or I clinically think about the angles or ways I could improve the shot even BEFORE I take it-which I don’t lately. *sigh* It’s sad. :-/ ….I’M sad.

But – am I going to let this stop me!? …I got an email from the Jamaica Cultural Development Commission today-They are now accepting entries for their Visual Arts Competition – I’ve been thinking of entering for the last two years….when I opened that email, I got that rush-for the first time in a long while – I want to take pictures. I LOVE taking pictures-there is a world in a picture-I want to capture little worlds. πŸ™‚ But I’m scared – what if they hate my work, suppose I don’t measure up?…but, you know what? –Β I’m going to be criticized-myΒ work is going to be criticized – do I let it get inside my blood and eat my soul and drain my creativity and dismember my art? That is a choice I have to make and I’m choosing NO! Criticism will NOT eat away my heart and drain my cavity(and all the morbid stuff you can ‘creatively’ execute*only in your imagination please!* hehehe). I will use it to rise…to the next level. Criticism is now my bitch! Muahahahahahaha (Yay me for being mature!)

lol lol lol

Ciao, ma dahlings

❀ Tomz


Posted by on April 14, 2011 in Art, Dream, Motivation, Passion, Photography


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12 responses to “Photography, photography, photography……………

  1. CorinaWrites

    May 16, 2011 at 11:53 pm

    I love that picture! Even an expert’s opinion is still just an opinion, & at least one other person on the interwebs (me!) thinks that it rocks. Also thanks for your comment on my post πŸ™‚

  2. Tomekha

    May 17, 2011 at 12:00 am

    πŸ˜€ Thank You! πŸ™‚ …..and ur welcome πŸ™‚ – loved reading ur posts πŸ™‚

    Hope u come back and visit my other blog πŸ™‚

  3. Southern Beale

    June 21, 2011 at 12:21 am

    I love that picture too! So evocative … please post more of your work on-line and don’t give up! You have something to say … SAY IT!

    • Tomekha

      June 22, 2011 at 4:19 pm

      Thank you πŸ™‚

  4. mypajamadays

    July 24, 2011 at 3:55 pm

    You have to follow your own path – not someone else’s. I heard an interesting interview with Colbie Callait this week. She auditioned THREE times for American Idol and never made it past the preliminary judging. She never made it to the judges table, because, wait for it…they didn’t think she would be marketable. Seriously? Now look at her! And I am forever grateful that she didn’t stop striving to reach her dream. You shouldn’t either.

  5. Tomekha

    July 26, 2011 at 6:25 pm

    πŸ™‚ Thank you and I won’t give up. ….I haven’t actually taken any pictures in a while but I intend to enroll in a short course programme for photography in the near future.

  6. mrsmmoon

    July 28, 2011 at 4:26 pm

    Well, no matter what he says, I like the picture! I also wanted to thank you for stopping by on my SITS day last Friday, I am late getting to everyone, but I am so grateful for your visit!

    • Tomekha

      July 28, 2011 at 5:38 pm

      πŸ™‚ Thank you for taking the time to stop by – it was a joy reading some of your posts πŸ™‚ …and I”m happy u like the picture πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚

  7. Mirjam

    December 28, 2011 at 4:46 pm

    I LOVE that picture! I love black and white pictures too, I even did my wedding photoshoot in black and white. Funny thing is that I have no black and white pictures on my blog…Well I love them anyway!

    • Tomekha

      December 28, 2011 at 9:07 pm

      πŸ™‚ Thank you πŸ™‚ I LOVE black and white too!!!! It just has something timeless and classic about it πŸ™‚

  8. Kenya G. Johnson (Sporadically Yours)

    December 29, 2011 at 1:08 am

    I hope that the fact that he didn’t like this picture isn’t the reason you you stopped posting. Please continue. That said, also read this when you have a chance.

    • Tomekha

      December 29, 2011 at 2:14 am

      No, that isn’t the reason I stopped – …it’s also kinda hard to pursue photography when you don’t actually own a camera so…I hope to get one soon though πŸ™‚ …goin to read that article now.


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